Chaos wrote:
Yeah, I know Tailsteak. Met his
brother in highschool. Invited him out for a party, we became friends. I've gone with both of them on their last trip down to anthrocon. Hell, you never picked up on his
Open letter to me? He's joining me for lunch in like 10 mins. He know much of this forum through me. If ever you drop by London, I'll see what can be arranged. And for those of you who remember him, Vigi-Kami also knows Tailsteak.
Hell, Tailskeak and I regularly game together. He's in my D&D group. Hell, I was the guy playing Hyde when he played
Joeseph.
As for your life, I've been there. I gotta say, it isn't as much the "passion" thing you have to worry about, it's the entire "collage sucking the life out of all interesting things" issue you got to resolve.
This might get a little Verbose, and i GOT 25 mins to do it in.
Ask yourself this; "What do you want from life?" not what do you want to do for a living, but what do you want from life? the difference is huge. You see, I want to create. I've got these Ideas in my head an I want them OUT! I also want to play with tech. So I'm in IT. However, I am not the happiest person I have ever met. That would be my Grandpa. He's a cool guy. Tough as nails. In life, he was a cop, a boxer, a real estate manager, a navy-man and a barbershop quartet singer. That's not what he wanted from life though. He wanted a family, he wanted to be a patriarch. He had 5 kids, raised them well, and they all had kids. If if you check my facebook pics, you can see a huge line of people at thanksgiving, over 40 people sitting at one table, and he's at the head of it. He's a happy man.
Or take my Dad, his dream was to conduct an orchestra. He's a good trumpet player, but not so good as to get that request answered to him. So he became a music teacher. Eventually, he got a vice-principleship. He took that position, and used it to save the local orchestra, by setting up Educational concerts where kids got to listen to some fun classical music for free. This made the Orchestra elagable for a grant offered by the government. They were the only ones in Canada who qualified. In return for this, he conducted for them, a number of times.
I've heard of a random business man who only wanted to travel, so he put all of him business stuff on a single credit card and uses it to fly around the world. Or the Rich Dad, Poor dad, dude, who became rich, without a college education, by wise investing and a semi good job.
You don't need a higher education to get all you want in life, It helps, but only if you recognise what it is you are looking for. Wanna have sex all day? Do-able. Wanna drink all day? Do-able.
So what do you want?
Oh By the way, Tailsteak just walked up. He says "Hi".
I've been to London twice, and I fucking hate the place. I will keep this information in mind though, for you never know. BTW, doesn't Tailsteak live in Canada? Anyway, tell him that he has fans in weird places, that his work is inspiring in it's originality and that he should resume updating his artblog. Tell him I say 'please' (I heard a rumor that it's a magic word, maybe it'll work on him).
As for the studying thing... "What I want from life" is an excellent question. I think I want to... Be happy. Life is but a game and it's pointless to play if you don't enjoy it. But then again, what and where do I find this 'joy'? Tough question... At this point, I have a feeling as if I'm trapped inside a small box at the back of my mind, and that there's a whole world to explore if I can only free my mind.
But then again, I'm *afraid* of making decisions I don't know the consequences of. In hindsight, going to study Material Engineering at a respected university was the most 'square'/'normal'/
boring decision I could've made.
The thing I want to study the most is 'The Internet', from a social point of view. I currently think about (which is like 'plan to', only without actually making a decision) about switching faculty to economy/busyness-management and from there specialize in the internet as a social environment. I only need to decide that this is, indeed, the thing I want to do, but I don't have the guts to make that leap into the unknown... Yet!
Anyway, thanks *a lot* for providing me an outlet and a platform to organize my thoughts on. I tend to think about my problems until I lose all perspective of the matter, and the only solution to that is an outside perspective, so thanks for that as well.
And
this is what this board is for me, an outside perspective.