Spools wrote:
I have a theory. These British authors are so influenced by the longtime empiriscism of their country, beign a monarchy and all the citizens mere subjects whose goal it is to serve their king or queen or what have you, that the thought that a creature could be so committed to itself, so secure in it's own worth, so individualistic, is terrribly threatening to their masculinity.
I think we should pity them and their dogmatic insecurities that lead them to demonize the true individual.
:o wow that was painful reading - the sadness is that money rules if you got to fukin live in britain pay all your fukin money to the government then you dont have time for anything else but go by the way its been done for ages, Im thinking about conservation of energy and here they have lot of conserved energy and eveyrbody wants to come and take there share of its warmth no matter what you need to deny as the side effect but anyways that was so to the point I hate all kind of fixated political structures as this place is, and in here you have to behave even more than in Finland Im so pissed already is there even one single place where you can be just individual anymore, its just getting weirder and weirder the more far away I go from home to look for liberty the more entrapment I face with and eventually have to face with the fact that I can only be free in my own mind but never can be myself anywhere -its sad and true- money has poured the last sand in the coffin of my real self
Dont ask me to grammar this because I dont want to go back to this thought and think about it too much its depressive and sometimes when you write it down it become more real and painful reality than if you just kept quiet the thought can go away and another reality can take over your mind-Im currently fighting between these too but not sure which will win. Unfortunately you are also dictated by the people you live with you owe responsibilities and you cant be just all individual and then die to hunger because of it - seriously I just have a limited amount of strenght to think these things and I havent been very well too, it snot like I want to give up on anything its just a necessity of life Im not happy with it but its realistic and you got to do what you got to do even if it means you become one of the mass and forget all about your own thing, God bless those who can
afford to be on their own