Okay guys, I've just been talking to Ancient on #en and he's got some stuff to say to everybody, though he's not entirely certain he wants to post a thread, so he asked me to do it.
"Well, incase ya don't remember, I got a bit of a health problem that causes me to vomit blood or have severe nose bleeds from time to time. It's pretty serious, and kinda life threatning in the sense I can have an anurism or stroke pretty damn easy. They haven't been able to operate it till now, so I'm getting surgery July 20th.
Anyways, I've been in Kyhm for a little under five years now, sometimes lurking sometimes active. When I first got here, at 13, I was still pretty new to the country and completely new to America. You guys introduced me to whole new modes of thought and ways of behaving.
You shaped me into the way I've become. I even looked up to some of you as rolemodels, as geeky as that may sound (Yevvy and Jasper come to mind). Some of you were emotional support and confidents in really bad times (Erin, I'll never forget whatcha did for me). I even have some of them on my cell phone list still, and I've kept all the postcards and christmas cards. I even have a birthday card from one of them!
They've been my friends since almost I first came to this country, and I guess that's why it's really important for me to tell them just how much I love them. And yeah, I know, much love from the lovemonger may not sound like something special, but you can believe me that you guys ARE something special.
So yeah, the surgery ain' a sure thing, it has some heavy risks attached to it, and I might not come back out.
What I want to know is if I should tell the people of Kyhm just how much they've meant to me in the past, and how much certain memories mean to me now. And if I DO tell them how affectionate I feel, should I tell them the reason why I'm telling them? The thing is, I hate making a big show or fusses, and the whole thing sounds like it might come off as melodramatic, but it feels abit important to me to get it out incase I dont.
Thank you for this, it kinda means something pretty big to me. I mean, I'm keeping a positive outlook and all, but just incase I don't want any regrets while on the table, and not telling you guys just how much you've affected me falls under that"
(he's sorta shy about all of this, so just leave messages and stuff in this thread and I hope he'll read them and hopefully drop on by)
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